Okey nw i dont have any idea of what to do right nw....
its hard having a fight and ignored by a friend...
now i seems i have to worry about my another best friend...
he like completely ignore me... when he go down to pndk...
he sees me and just ignore me and dont even 'salam' me
yeah i understand... the two of u are brothers..
fight with 1 fight with the other too
its really hard loosing 1 best friend now 2?!?!?!
ish i hate this kind of situation
i dont even know am i really mad or sad or just ahhhhhh!!!!
thoughts are going in and out of my mind
emotions are going on like crazy
stressing here and there
Monday is math paper i think and i have no confident at all
having problems here and there
i dont think i can concentrate i dont think i can do this paper at all
what should i do?? ahhh never had this kind of stress in my entire life


maybe i should end all this??? its just a easy way to end problems...
end my own life???? haha dont worry i wont
coz im not a coward... i wont run from this....
just have to face it... i have to be strong i need to
i wont make the same mistake like my late sister
ill face my problems........
but how?? i cant face them without feeling ashamed


advisers says i just need to give them some time to chill... but for how long?? will they ever chill??will they even think about this??
but i dont think soo ... i mean they dont seem to care and
its my problem nt theirs
they seems to be able to live with it... but i cant
i really cant....


i need the trios back
i need death rose back
i need my best friends back
i need my hopes and continue back to my dreams
i cant live like this... i cant even sing or do anything right this dayzz
i cant sleep i cant dream i cant have fun without knowing theres hope of making this friendship work back the way it was...
i know u guys think im like a girl expressing my feelings like this
but come on u should know that i have a soft heart
fake smiles fake words... its just not like me
do u guys even care?? will u guys ever forgive me??will give me another chance??
its hard to say im sorry face to face...i feel soo ashamed i cant do it... its really hard


im worried about this that this that.... hate this part....
guys its been fun when it was always us 3... it always was us 3...
but maybe nw its just the 2 of u left??
i dunnoe... i cant help of thinking what would happen if we were separated...
its just the start and i cant take it....


if we will be saparated forever... i want you guys to know that i liked and enjoyed the passed months we 3 were together...it was something really special to me i didnt realise is at first but now at this critical state... i guess i realised the 2 of u were the ones who made me smile always and encouraged me to do want i want and stand up for my right...i cant imagined what i will be now if u 2 werent by my side... it felt good to be in the group...
you guys were my heroes...
Thanks for The Memories...

Friendships starts with a smile and ends with a million tears

i wish u guys understands and feel what i am feeling right now
if those days were special to you guys too... u guys must feeling something... rite???
i mean... u guys werent using me or anything right??


They say a picture worth a thousand words...
maybe the picture below does....